hmm.. sitting here at 3.40 in the morning, can't sleep. listening to saves the day - nightingale now.i hate these seemingly slow moving nights. it makes me think about where i am now in my life and where it is headed. the reality is that time is moving fast now and i'm feeling left behind. there is something that i didn't do right somewhere and have left me far from where i thought i should be.

well, enough of that. a few days back i made a decision to work. not right away, but in january. this coming december will be a very hectic month with my exams coming, then followed closely with my eldest sister's wedding. then a couple of weeks to go before i start working. hopefully i get the job. i just need to take some time off to regroup and rethink. the financial benefit is just a plus side :).

its funny but what i just wrote in the first and 2nd paragraph reminds me of a streetlight manifesto song called "one foot on the gas, and one foot in the grave". on one hand i feel unmotivated and on the other i can't wait to move forward.




and we've got one foot on the gas and one foot in the grave
everyone was laughing when we said we have it made......